Month: June 2018

Over time, my desire for “seeing” and understanding was spreading to another levels – I longed to find out where I came from, what resided hidden in me (initially I wanted to acknowledge only the divine :-D), what energy and abilities my soul carries, I wanted to remember the true essence of my being. I felt more like a cosmic being than an earthling. Over the next few years, I worked intensively to eradicate (sometimes even literally exorcize :-D) the victim program in me and discover the aspects that were feeding it. I recognized with a surprise my negative and limiting patterns of thinking, the tendency to give up, my prejudices, judging others, and many other programs. It all brought me ever more to the idea of ​​unity, which I could not fully grasp yet, the unification of duality within myself, the acceptance of “the negative” or lower patterns of behavior and my weaknesses, the desire to be more forgiving, not judgmental of anything and to expand my ability of compassion. I have to say that it´s not easy for me, but I bravely continue to conquer them. 🙂

I understood that my enthusiasm about E.T. neighbors is closely linked to my process of awakening, healing, acceptance, integration and understanding. I took the detour (over other planets), and I´ve got a lot of help for my understanding from posts from Vashta Narada and Lyssa Royal Holt. Through reading the channeled information about the peoples of other planets, their awakening and mastery process, their history, their difficulties and their tasks, and through feeling their energies, I slowly started to recognize myself in their stories, my own hardships, obstacles and tasks. From Vashta’s energy images, I could easier recognize their energy footprint, and several times I found myself amazed that I knew some of those beings. The more I got rid of fear and judgment, the more I was able to look at the polarity and duality as an impartial observer. Vashta’s work has been a crucial breakthrough for me in “accepting negativity” and changing the point of view. Actually, it was about accepting my life on Earth and all its faces. I have experienced how the change of perspective is changing the whole reality. It dissipated much of my inner resistance that I could not move with before.

I understood that “they” are guiding me to myself, that they are showing me through themselves who I am. They are healing and activating me.

I had a period of several years when I felt a great desire and the need to know my name. Like the name of my soul, my fingerprint, true vibration. I was fixed on the idea that it must be a name. I tried to receive it in a meditation, but it did not work back then because of my dominating mind which held me in tension and expectation.

At some point, I left my comfort zone and fundamentally changed my life, and my process quickly accelerated. I stood in the temple in front of the statue of my master Shirdi Sai Baba one evening, and I asked from the heart, “Please, tell me my name, I want to know it, I want to know myself completely, please tell me.” I had a widely open heart on fire and stood before him without an ego, without barriers, just wanting to know the truth. And suddenly I heard my name clearly in my head. And then another one. 🙂 I discovered step by step that both names belong to one Sirian being, my guide, who is my future self, respectively I have connected myself with myself in a different reality and dimension. I was asking her for healing and help when I needed energy support in my process because I had an emotionally challenging times. I seemed to slowly integrate her energy into my system because I no longer feel her. When I call her, I only feel stronger my own energy and sparkling inside my body.

I had another experience again in the Baba Temple, when I asked for my name. I feel connected with the beings of a certain race, and I wanted to know if my soul exists on their plane and how it is named in the incarnation. And the name came to me almost immediately, easily. When I connected with this being, I felt just falling into deep silence, infinity and peace. There were no desires or questions, just consciousness and deep peace. I felt like I wanted to feel this way all the time, living this state in this life. It is my / our natural state of being. It’s a literally a superhuman goal, but I’m working on it. 🙂

As I became more receptive to different energies and able to distinguish them better, I began to notice that suddenly I was beginning to feel new energy in my energy field. I found out that my guides from different dimensions are visiting me at some level, and want to show me another aspect of myself, my blind spots, the past I have to let go off, the patterns I need to change. When I noticed that they wanted to work with me, and I opened up to communication with them, I noticed a clearer extrasensory perception. It’s easier to get the information. All the spiritual purification work, which was quite unpleasant before, began to be faster, easier. I was very pleased that raising of vibrations is really leading somewhere. 😀

I´m being contacted by beings which I have very strong connection with or which are my counterparts in higher dimensions. Recognizing them produces a strong reaction and activation in all bodies (physical and light) as well as vivid communication in waking state and asleep; it’s an unmistakable recognition. When I integrate this energy and learn what I have to learn, I usually no longer feel them, and there is no emotional response.

The key to the communication with the spiritual guides and my other incarnations was to let go off fear and openness – to the Universe, to God, to the other beings; as well as self-confidence and trusting my intuition, and getting my power in my own hands.

In my childhood, I was wondering how the SPACE looks like, where it begins and ends, how it looks like on other planets, and how it is with those black holes, traveling through space/time and all the abstract concepts that I didn´t understand at all. ? But because it was a too big cake for one cup of cocoa and I didn´t find any answers to my questions, I have put it off for a few years. But I was still enthusiastic about watching the day and night sky, feeling its infinity and depth, staring at the clouds, being enchanted by the stars in the night sky.

Then something rapidly changed in 2012. I remember that day, the place and the feeling when “it” struck me – suddenly I got a strong inspiration and the desire to answer all these questions and to get rid of the fear of the unknown, of the stars and of what is beyond them. Suddenly I knew I just had to learn how the universe works, how it looks, and most importantly, who all is inhabiting it?

I unconsciously felt that I wanted to move from the separation to unity and face the duality, my fear, the feeling of weakness and ignorance. I wanted to know both “good” and “bad”, both inside and outside. I went into an in-depth study on the Internet, learned a lot of disturbing information and theories, but I did not give up and continued. I found out that a lot of people are actively engaged in contact with E.T. beings, channeling and healing through their energies; besides, I´ve got of course myself to many conspiracy theories and disclosure of governmental activities, etc. It was often an unpleasant study, but I just dove into it and I tried to find the truth. My intuition led me greatly, and when something was too much for me, I put off the topic for a while, and after a few years came back to it, with completely different consciousness and approach.

Almost immediately, as soon as I started this inquiry, I started having different weird dreams. Lots of vivid dreams, with many emotions and physical sensations, when I saw many spacecrafts following me, wanted to visit me, and I was excited, but I more scared, so I just ran away. 😀 But I knew very well what was happening.

Almost every night before bedtime, I felt a presence of one or several “people” at my bed, sometimes I had a glimpse of them and nearly got a heart attack.  When I was just about to fall asleep, I felt a wave of energy flowing through various parts of my body, my brain, my heart, and I felt a lot of love. And fear. 🙂 I began to understand that they were healing and activating me, but at that time I still did not understand why, and why me. Hahaha.

After some time my inner sight began to improve, I started to see (in the dark) the energy, different beings around me and energy structures. I wanted to understand it so much! I pushed it and by that I slowed down my progress and deeper understanding. I was really annoyed. 😀

With those experiences, my heart started to open up more, the fear decreased and my curiosity and enthusiasm to go deeper increased, as well as a wish to get more clarity. Because I perceived a lot of stuff and did not understand it at all.

This period lasted for about 4 years, when I felt small steps forward, and I was more and more studying different sources, channelings and I was feeling into their energies. I practised discernment, intuition, and gradually got a good deal of clarity about what information is true to me, and what not. This is a very important ability – to discern and not to believe everything that one reads. 😀 Especially when we are opening to something we can´t see and don´t know. I learned how important it is to be aware of my motives, to believe my heart and intuition, to read between the lines and to recognize manipulation, and to constantly observe my ego. The more honest I was to myself, the more I revealed my feeling of inadequacy, the desire to prove something to myself and to fit in, the tendency to escape and to reject the present moment, and many other great qualities. 🙂 Actually, I did not appreciate myself as a human being. I did not know where it came from.

It’s a juicy and fruitful process, and I love it. I can heartfuly recommend a Q & A video by Vashta Narada, who talks about all these aspects and pitfalls. She is great in clear sharing of information, I very much resonate with most of it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PlihzCZDnE  I find it a perfect summary, so I share it.

To be continued …